A Priestess's Rants

3:47pm: Following Nyx's Path
I would like to apologize for not updating my posts in a long while. I've been attempting to meditate when I feel like writing, but Erik called and reminded me that writing could be a form of meditation.

We're still trying to take down Neferet. Thank god I've got all the other Vamps behind me. They know that she's gone bad, and no longer follows Nyx. Argh. I just miss Stevie Rae like crazy, and wish she could be on campus with me for the support. I'm not comfortable talking to my roommates about my...issues. I just, wish for some advice...any advice.

9:54pm: sleepless days.
i've been really confused...and i've been having this recurring dream...lots of green. it's not like grass green, but emerald. i'm not sure what's going on though. i don't know what it means; i'll have to meditate and ask nyx tonight.

have you heard say anything's new album? it's amazing. there are some lyris that make me think of my latest challenge, draco. he seems like he takes the same view on the world as max bemis.

I hate:
Actors who seem genuine
I hate:
My ex-girlfriend though she's feminine
I hate:
The singer with the denim skin
I hate everyone

I hate:
That hospital in Texas
I hate:
The rapper in the Lexus
I hate:
The pills I ate for breakfast
Hate everyone!

ya know? lol. plus say anything is such an amazingg band. :) maybe they'll come to kansas and i can see them. hmmm.

so, i was talking to my grandma, and she thinks i need a guy in my life. i don't know though, my love life has always been complicated. i don't know. blah. life is complicated.

7:43pm: crappy week.
I don't know what it is, but this week sucks. I'm tired, I think it's because my roommates sometimes forget I'm on a night schedule so I sleep during the day. I know it's not their fault.

And also this whole Draco bit is kind of bugging me. I wish I could show him that not all vampires are bad...I don't know though...It's aggravating.

I wish Grandma were here...I need a hug.

4:00pm: Did Everyone Have a Good Samhain?
So, my religious New Year, Samhain (pronounced Sow-en) was on what everyone else calls Halloween. I did a bit of a religious festivity and then went to bed. I have a love/hate relationship with this holiday. This ritual is known as Ancestor Night or Feast of the Dead. Because the veil between the worlds is thinnest on this night, it was and is considered an excellent time for divinations. It's fun because everyone else dresses up in costumes and runs around, but on the other hand it's very serious for my goddess, Nyx.

This is also a time, in my religion, for settling problems, throwing out old ideas and influences, hear that Draco? When you wanna talk, I'll be here.

10:36pm: Prejudice...Already.
So my second day here at KSU, and I've already encountered my first bit of prejudice. Darn it. I just wish people would understand that JUST because I am a vampyre does NOT mean that I'm vicious. I don't have uber physical strength. I can use the ELEMENTS as offense/defense, but I would never attack a human unless I was being attacked first.

Also I DON'T bite humans! Gross. When I found out I was a vampyre, that factor grossed me out. I was glad to hear that the House of Night just buys donor blood for us, and I get a shipment of it every week.

Grr. I just. Darn it. I hate feeling like no one likes me. I'm so panicked now. I miss my friends. I think I'll call to Nyx tonight. She'll know what to do. My goddeess can help me anytime I need help.

8:11pm: New Dorm...New Life?
So, I just moved into my new dorm room at Kansas State University. My suite is cozy, and my room in the dorm is set up perfectly. I got some nice candles so I can call a circle when I feel I need to be close to Nyx. There is no Temple on campus, so I've got to create my room to be a makeshift Temple when I feel I need my goddess.

I'm not sure what kind of impression I left on my roommates. They seem nice. I think Jean-Paul Beaubier is an interesting character; I can really sense the air element around him. And Kairi is a sweet girl, who is my age. Hopefully, she and I will be good friends.

But I really think this year will be interesting. Let's just hope it's not weird. My new roommates understand my weird eating habits, and that I lace my wine with blood...luckily they weren't to grossed out by that. I am a vampyre, but I decided to live among humans to improve vampyre/human relations. I am the new High Priestess of the House of Night, but I did not want to train with the House of Night. I believe that my training is important to how humans view us. Hopefully I can convey that I, too, am just the same as them, with elemental powers.

I worry about the red vampyres without me -- more-so, Stevie Rae, my best friend. I am a living vampyre. The red vampyres are what humans think when they think "Dracula." Dead, but not. An interesting concept, but yes...with me out of Oklahoma, I really worry about them. Maybe my new roommates will help me worry less about my old charges.

I hope Nyx gives me the strength to deal with everything on my plate right now.